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Naomi Randall - Journal

16th July 1999

The disease is all sorted now. It was a werewolf. Once again it came down to another combat situation where I haven't got a clue what to do. The others are throwing magic at it, and I'm just stood there like a muppet because there's nothing I can do that can hurt it. So I decided to bide my time and put myself between it and whoever it went for, which was Tom... I figured I'd probably be able to avoid getting hit better than anyone else, given I've actually had some training. I think I did pretty well, got a chunk ripped out of my arm but that will heal in a week or so.

But while my arm is fine I seem to have damaged my friendship with Tom. He's convinced that a big part of the reason I jumped between him and the werewolf was because he's in a wheelchair and I think he's incapable of looking after himself. I've tried to tell him my reasons for what I did, but either he's not listening or he doesn't believe me.

I need to find another way. Something else I can bring to the group besides being a meat shield. I want to have a use that won't hurt my friends in the process. If I could expand my understanding of the world that would help, learn to use magic outside of myself... but it will take a while as I have no teacher at the moment, and to be honest I'm a little scared of it. I don't know why, I just... but then again combat isn't necessarily a bad thing. Used in the wrong way it is, but the same goes for anything. I could teach people to defend themselves. No, I am going to teach people to defend themselves. I have ideas, unfortunately I could use Tom's help, and I really don't want to ask him at the moment.

There's other stuff I could use his help with too, big stuff, but... now's not the right time. Maybe in the future it'll all be okay, but not now. For now I'll go a more mundane route and see if there's anything Theo can do for me. Or maybe Jabe could help. I'll talk to him, see if he can suggest anything. Maybe talk to him about Tom as well, see if he has any ideas. I don't know why, but I feel like I can talk to him... he's like that close friend of the family that you refer to as 'Uncle' even though he's not related...

Anyway, going out with Laurence tonight, hopefully he'll be able to take my mind off things and cheer me up a little.

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