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Naomi Randall - Journal

3rd May 1999 + 6 days

That was not pleasant. First we find that the station, and all of it's systems have been taken over by the Nephandi and some ubervirus of thiers. Then we find monsters lurking around every corner. We managed to track down Feral, the station AI, so tried to get her, but we had to go through a room full of tentacle monsters...

We got ambushed by a couple of them. Jake charged in with his sword. Not entirely sure what the others did, but I was so scared I just ran. I got to the door we were aiming for, to safety. Everyone else followed, everyone but Jake that is. I turned round to see two of the tentacle monsters trying to shove him in their mouths. I thought about closing the door. Just for a moment, but it was there.

Then something snapped, like a sudden moment of clarity, and I went back out there. I struck my best scary-arse-bastard pose, and promtly got leapt on by one of the monsters who seemed to think I wanted my head pulling off. I'm not sure what happened next, but the monster's head exploded in front of me, and once I'd managed to haul its corpse from on top of me, I found Jabe with no right arm, Jake on the floor unconscious, Tom being mauled by the other monster, and I've no idea where Theo was.

My first instinct was to try and stop Jabe's arm bleeding, after all I'd already proved I couldn't handle these things, but he told me to go help Tom. After trying to hit it and just swiping ineffectually at it and getting covered in slime for what seemed like ages, I finally managed to focus myself enough that I hit it. And thanks to the fireballs Jake had already thrown at it, I killed it. I was expecting to feel something, maybe joy, maybe revulsion, something at least, but I didn't. I just felt kind of empty.

I'm not sure how, but I got the others back to a vague coherency, and through the door to safety, closing it behind us, then collapsed. But if only I'd done something sooner, I might have been able to stop them getting hurt, or at least getting hurt so badly.

We found Feral, came up with a cunning plan to save the day, picked up guns from the armoury and got ourselves healed in the infirmary on the way to the Big Bad... He knew we were coming, prophesised apparently. We were stood around the door with our big guns, ready to burst in, and he just opens it and stands there, 'Greetings, Child of Moloch. We've been expecting you.' he said in his supercilious tone. I should have shot him then. I could have. I was ready, whereas I don't think anyone else was. But I didn't, just got one of those nagging little feelings in the back of my mind and held back, even followed him inside in front of everyone else.

He said stuff. We said stuff. There were accusations thrown around. And as I was trying to milk him for information a fight broke out and he disappeared.

We got off the station before Feral blew it up. And that's where I am now. On an escape pod bound for Mars of all places. I'm trying not to be mad at the others for just kicking off when we could have got some info out of the guy, but I'm having trouble. And why is this Child of Moloch thing upsetting me so much?

I think it's me.

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